One of the Greatest pains...

Through the sunrise and sunsets we met

All I did back then was out of love and care

Each word I utter comes from my heart

And every sacrifice I did for your good

And in the hopes to make you smile and learn to love me.

Each hot drops of tears I shed

Begging for your forgiveness when we fought

And each cold and biting words that stab my heart

Which slowly placed fear so strong in my soul

The fear to love another woman after you.

Night and day I grew edgy

That another movement of mine might displease you

Each breath a shudder as if cold

I feel cold and empty for what you are doing

Unshed tears I stop from falling.

Now the fog clears and I see the truth

Too long have you stomped on my heart

For too long have you kept my a slave

Why did I not tell you all this?

For I want you to realize your wrongs

You are not the one who I met

You changed but I accept that

But it is now too late for you to realize your mistake

In time and I pray you may realize all these

And that you may repair what you break.

Now a foolish yet a powerful question

Did you really love me even once?

Were my sacrifices the reason why you love me?

Or was it just because of what I can give you?

Or did you just love me because you think it is a game...

I don't want to be with you...

I treat you as a person but have no love for you left...

Not even do I love you as a friend

And it is upon a shadow of a shadow that you exist in my heart and mind

You may look smug and say you never needed me

Why did you even say you love me when you didn't need me?

My heart is not a toy nor is it a doll for you to play with

Nor any other person's heart!

I pray you realize all these in time...

Goodbye...

It is so painful when someone you love just kicks you aside for one small reason. Yesterday she says she loves you... you did something wrong... she demands an explanation, you give her an explenation she doesn't even try to listen and she does not love you. Question is... did she really love you? And in the situations stated above... is that what you call love.....

just a ramblings of a person who experienced all that...

Vien~†

Many blogs -> sweat, fun and more discoveries ^ ^

Phew* yah I know a lot of you know what I feel heh... it is not an easy job to update hmm... over 5 blogs? ^_< heh... but it is tiring and fun heheh.... I knew more things about myself for the past few days heh...

hmm... what were those things I discovered? hmm..... ^ ^

Friends give you advices for your own good, they sometimes scold you or give you the cold shoulders to open your eyes to what are you doing to yourself. What parts of life are you missing and to let you know that there is something wrong. When you ask for advices from your close friends some of them watch if you really follow their advices. Some people/friends get hurt when you do not follow their advices, because they care a lot for you. Some friends can get moody because of what is happening in their lives, as a friend be there for them ^ ^.

~The one above is what I learned about friendship through a long process~

"Love is like a storm, you have to go through the Grey, to see the Rainbow at the end." - Bryan

Love they say is a bed of roses where there are thorns. You can not love without getting hurt, nor can you love without trust or care. Love is not dependence on one person but it is a mutual bond, where you give and take. Not purely give nor purely take. When two people love each other, they fear for each other and sometimes this turns to jealousy which shouldn't be done. It is alright to fear but be optimistic and open minded. It is easy to say you trust someone, it is easy to give your trust to someone but to maintain it and strengthen it is hard. Love is a teacher who teaches us about life, that there are downs and there are ups. You need to be strong not to the point that you are cold-hearted or stone-hearted. Be strong for the ones you love, give them strength and inspiration.

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You are who you are not who the world wants you to be.

You have the Choice to be what and who the world wants you to be. It is always your choice, if you say you are forced the question is "Did I tell them I don't want to? (In a respectful way) Did I tell them why I don't like this?"

"Think positive, and don't give up no matter what. Prove to them the why of things. and what you stand for." - Robert Justino Santos

Never give up, for you are never alone. Even if you look or seem to be alone, remember in your heart and mind you are never alone.

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Hope you guys like mah entry for today heh :P ^ ^ Ciao! Hope you guys can comment heh :P TC! God Bless you all~!! ^ ^

After such a loongg... senti mode ^ ^

This summer vacation is full of surprises, mysteries, laughs, tears, ups and downs. And of course fears and relief ^ ^. Well... after a long time of senti mode I managed to make a poem ^ ^  sorry if I was only able to update my blog now. I will tell you guys the complete details of my summer in days to come. ^ ^

Here is my poem: (Inspired by the Background Music "Wherever You Will Go" by: The Calling **Remembers Someone hehehe**)

As I look into the Skies…

By: Vientiane Pajo

My gaze I cast far off to the sea of stars

Like a feather to the celestial skies I drift

Slowly I drift to a world my own deep in silence

Memories and thoughts past and flash like shooting stars

Yet my heart has its own questions and own world.

In silence I wonder amongst the myriad of people

Lulled and drift to the stars in their own silence

Like me are you watching the enthralling skies?

And what thoughts cross your mind and what memories?

But my heart beats whenever I wonder am I in your thoughts?

If I am in a special place in your heart as you gaze in the skies?

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Made on the night before the Meteor Shower…

April 21, 2006

You who inspired everything in me

You who have shown me the difference from truth and lie

You whom my heart finds comfort

This is the truth I pray you may accept…

To the Senior Batch S.Y. 2005-2006 of our school (San Benildo INtegrated School A De La Salle Supervised Catholic School)

Ascent of the Enlightened

By: Vientiane Pajo

The beat of each stride

Announces thy arrival on the threshold of life

Your heart beats with the beating drums

That announces thy presence

The choruses of songs like a raft on a lake

To the past Thine lakes take thee.

There thou saw an eagle on a nest

Atop a cliff clawing to the skies

The lulling crevice a mouth and the garden of death

You beat your feathery wings

To the beat of an un-tuned harp

The yearning there and the incessant beating

Till dusk you try and rest to try again.

Thoust climbs a cliff as steep as a stick

The ground your deathbed

Heart’s pounding the voice of consequence

And with faithful strive you top the rise

Hands you raise to see a wonderful surprise

High is the cliff a mark of disdain or solemnity with Thine?

There on a field with cherries so sweet

There a rose amongst the thorns

Joy as evident and as moving as the wind

As you sit by the tree

There your gaze rest to a field unclouded.

Tears like rain drip on the raft

Now as reality returns you reminisce again the past

A choice laid like a gift at thy feet

The choice yours to wield like a sword

Or to brandish blindly like a hunting spear

To the light you now step

There the eagle has soared

On somber silence you thank Thine

There by the tree you sit and smile

Walk now, look back and never forget

You are who you were and now are

Forever till the end…

To all 3rd year- C people..... notes nyo sa Health to!

STRESS AND MENTAL DISORDER

Person with poor mental health usually experience mental stress.

Effects:

• They cannot express their emotions
• Not comfortable with themselves
• Do not have satisfactory relationship with others
• Have a harmful behavior

LIVING WITH STRESS

Stress – it is the individual’s reaction to stressors or the body’s internal response to a stressful situation.

NEGATIVE EFFECTS OF STRESS

1. Feels bad
2. Headache
3. Upset Stomach

POSITIVE EFFECTS OF STRESS

1. Helps to meet the challenge
2. Getting up the nerve to talk to someone you have been wanting to meet for over month
3. Gets to do things which have been left undone

CAUSES OF STRESS

1. Physical
   1. Heat
   2. Cold
   3. Glare pollution
   4. Sudden or continued noise
2. Emotional
   1. Fear
   2. Anxiety
   3. Depression
   4. Anger

e.       Joy

6. Love

STRESS AND ILLNESS

1.      Sleep Disorders

2.      Skin Diseases

a.       Cold

b.      Sores

c.       Acne

d.      Hives

3.      Digestive Problems

a.       Nausea

b.      Vomiting

c.       Diarrhea

d.      Constipation

4.      Ulcer (digestive ailment)

5.      Headaches (migraine)

6.      Hypertension

CAUSES MENTAL DISORDERS

A.     Hereditary – Mental Disorders can be inherited through genes of one or both parents.

B.     Environmental Factors – Environment might be the cause of disorder. The family is the most influential factor for mental disorder.

C.     Brain Factor – Anything that affects the brain can influence a person’s mental health status.

STEPS TO A HEALTHY PERSONALITY

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